Shades of Silence

Beginning of an awkward goodbye

Disguise for the thoughts running by

Comfort of the familiar

Fear of failure

Introspection
Tension
Objection
Defense mechanism

Exhaustion
Exhilaration
Exasperation

A blissful night of dreams
Contemplation on have beens

Voice of the smitten
Language of the eyes
My secret
Your response
Perhaps a white lie

A master political move
or a fool's recluse

Hush, it's up for debate
Just keep the whispers away

Day Dreaming

You and me
Let's run away
To a land of promise
Where the mountains sway

Where our little hands
Hold each other
Our gaze unbroken
By thoughts affray

Pause a bit, this passing time
Let me close my eyes
And dream a little while

Of moments that live
Drenched in this fantasy
Delirious with the thoughts
Of breaking away

For when we do
time won't exist
To plaque us with finality
Sordid closures
Of reality


You and me
Let's run away
To a land of deception
Where the mountains sway

Let's break the daylight
With our screams
Bountiful jumps
Of conquered dreams

For no reason lies
In what we can do
But in bouts of rebellion
That makes life give way

So let's just
Run away

I packed in eternity

for just that day

The Reds

I would try again
To bring you back
To see you
The way I saw you
Long time ago

When the words you said
Were stories in themselves
Whether true or not
Didn't really matter

When you could tease me
And please me
Break me
And mend me
With a whisper,
And a simple soft kiss


When I would meet you
And repeat to you,
My life's little tales
So that they humor you
Make my tales worthwhile


When your gaze could sedate me
And your smile would color me
When my whole world
Could fit in your arms


When even after your leave
Your words would remain alive
To be played on loop
Conjured up on cue
When my darling,
You would fill up my mind

The memories of love
Could well be made up,
Of delirious fantasies
That's why they don't seem real
When you look back
After a while..


Yet,
I would try again
To bring you back
To see you
The way I saw you
With blinkers on,for sometime

Cause ,this little fantasy of mine
Set up a stage and put on a show
Cocooned me and fooled me,
Convinced me,
Of its finality

Dear love I am not letting you go
I hold a grudge, from long time ago

Chicken Soup for the Brain

When the days are hijacked
By your own in- competencies
And smiles turned down
Scared to look in their eyes

When the joy of victory
Is only half hearted
A nervous cheer
Justifying what is not required

The ugly compromise
Of mediocrity, and faded yellows
Purpose less droopy eyes
And a skeleton will to support the sight

What would it take?
To hold the self in high regard
To worship the ego
To reject this tragic – self suicide

To create dissonance,
When the drive overrules conventions
And the follies of the mind
Find no time in the play of life

The ugly compromise
You can well be a thought out choice
But the liberty to excel
Is a right, only the brave will exercise

As  the days go by
And mediocrity takes it toll
Dear, little mind
Take heed
The jaded doesn’t mean corrupted
And paucity doesn’t mean demise

The absolute reality, distant as it might seem..
Is that a true purpose will find its means

When fear becomes nostalgia
And spirit an unfettering beast
When the average is provoked
And critiqued into submission
Is when the self will come to be

When remorse is not at the days end
But for the end of limited days
When the ugly compromise
Is dead and buried
The many personal victories
Paying homage everyday

Dear, little mind
Take heed
Compromises don't meet finality
And fate remains fluid
Till you color the ugly
Till you accept the deal

Push and Drive

Of passions that sedate you
At the brightest hour
Of people who remind you
Of your glorious past

Of hidden boxes
With the clippings
And the little
Make up box

Of the theatrics of the day
And sarcasm of the night
A little bit of reality,
Thrown in the way

Of the way I look at you
And the way I look at everyone
A little bit of amusement
To make it just right

The part is all ready
I am prepared to play
But perhaps, a day or two
These fools can wait

The stakes are high
And I have myself to please
If only,
The mind would comply
Feed into the passion
Numb the fear blind

Of the one final outcome
And the momentary flight
When objects become illusions
And I craft the meaning of time

Of the curtain call
The applause
And the inevitable,
Fall back to black and white

Of passions
That sedate you
At the brightest hour
And outcomes that lure you
To search the soul dry

Of the exhaustion of unrest
And fighting yourself
Of the song of the phoenix
And the melody of life

Perspective

Some people
Living their everyday life
Grieve the past when they sleep
Of how things were
And when did they change so secretly?

Some when they live
Think of the days ahead
And grieve the future
Of expectations and person to be

But the saddest of them all
Are the ones who grieve for a dream
Of  an impossible possibility..

With no past or future
It becomes their story to weave
Affecting every motivation
The story grips their reality

We all live in illusions
Finding comfort in self pity
I bet you are happier than me
Or would you rather bet your smile on that with me?

No Nonsense

I don't love you
Cause I have to

My friendships
Are not company

The memories I have
Are shot term
Never afraid, to run out of them

The time of my life
Happens more often than not
My little dancing shoes
Sometimes play music on their own

I love you
Because you inspire me to
And the friendships
Are indulgences of the heart

When the mind is courageous
To dabble in grief
And the soul
Can bare many truths

When I close my eyes
I think of just me
And many people
Would think along with me

Dare I say
Its a selfish life
Dare I say
Its the luckiest thing to be